A Pleasant Surprise

After posting about "Land of Confusion" the other day I realized I haven't watched any recent videos in a long time. This sent me searching my Tivo programming to find some video programs to quench this new craving.

I decided to watch a set this morning and had a pleasant surprise waiting on me. These past months I've became very familiar with Fergie's song "Big Girls Don't Cry" and it really has became my favorite among her releases, but checking out the video made me giddy like a schoolgirl.



Milo Ventimiglia is starring opposite her in the video. This boi would be my husband if I had the opportunity pick anyone in this small world to share my life. You may remember him from the television series "Heroes", playing the central figure Peter Petrelli. I also heard he had a role on "Gilmore Girls" as well, but I wouldn't know anything about that.

The dark hair, the five-o'clock shadow, the way his eyebrow curls and his eyes twinkle. Love every curve and line on the boi. Yum and double yum.

He spends pretty much the whole video shirtless (with fake tattooing but I can deal with that) and I even get some nice closeup views of his nips as Fergie's singing a few lines from his chest. Mmmm.

I think this program is "Keep Until I Delete"

Here's the video if you guys wanna check it out.

Travis Wall

I have to say that I really love YouTube. After finding those videos of Ricky, I decided to see what I could find on my favorite from last year, Travis Wall. He was so hot and talented. He's got a great future ahead of him. These vids help me to remember how much I loved him. :P

Saying Goodbye to Ricky pt2

Saying Goodbye to Ricky

No, no, no. Of course I go and have to curse my favorite in the competition by promoting him from the start.



My boy Ricky was chosen to leave the competition tonight...and I am sooo disappointed and sad. It surprised how they felt his routine fell short of that breaker latin boy who relied on his floor spinning to save him. I know personality is an assett (much like with Benji last year) but the technique and diversity of routine needs to be there.

Ah, just let me vent and it will pass. He was so fricken hot and talented. Anyone that has any screen caps of the boy please send them my way! His experience on the show was way too short. *cry* Please aid me in honoring the premature exit of Ricky.

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As for the update in my world. Russ' went to the doctor a few days ago to find out what's wrong with his back. He's had two back and one neck surgery in the past and after viewing his xray results, he's found that he has a bulging disc pinching a nerve directly above the two discs he had already had surgery on.

He needs to get a ton of bloodwork done before there's a date for the operation, but hopefully this will bring the old Russ back and the prospect he'll start watching himself. He's not a young man anymore and needs to take care of his body. He's strongwilled and pig-headed and asking for help is not always easy for him, but hopefully I'll be able to help him past this.

This workweek has been exhausting for me. Resetting a number of departments in the store and working a full shipment today has left me real tired. I haven't been to the gym this week but I'll definitely be there tomorrow. Since I stayed an hour and a half over yesterday that means that I'll get to go home earlier tomorrow. Heck yeah! I've missed the gym.

I've really began to feel good about myself and my body. My clothes are fitting me so much better and it's bringing me new confidence in myself.

So, needless to say, I'm dissapointed in myself for not going this week. But, by gosh, I've been so tired. Anyways, have a good night all.

If It Were My Choice...

Alrighty, as any of my friends will know, I love "American Idol" but I rarely blog about it, but when it comes to "So You Think You Can Dance", I am just all about it.

These peops just amaze me everytime. I love to dance, but of course I will never be as good as these folk, but it is so very nice to watch. MTV envelops our minds to think that hip-hop and pop dance are the forms of acceptable social dance out there and this show helps to promote those other great forms of dance: i.e. latin, swing, jive, etc.

I also find it very nice that with these dances they're pushing versatility...and the most common-sensical thing to myself is that if you're wanting to make a living off of dance, being versed in many types would be the best way to keep yourself in work.

This is also coming from someone who has had one class in dance which really wasn't very explicit on a type...kinda modern, but like the Mia Michaels meets kindergarten type. And then a mix of gay club dance meets country-western techniques. I will admit going with my sister to a country/western bar for years and learning line dance really helped me to learn beat, precision and stylized moves. You'll be surprised how much it can help those unversed in dance feel better about themselves.

Anyways, nows my time to express my views for my favorites. I do have a couple of female favorites... Lauren and Sara being them, they are sweet...and Sara is just the bomb! But of course with this being a gay blog written by a gay man I'll have to focus on the hot bois I'm voting for. And believe me, I vote on talent or potential as well. Depending on what dance type they pick, the couple could be in or out of their element and we have to look at how they adapt versus those who were bred in that kind of dance environment.

Anyway, here's my top hotness factor picks.



Ricky has these great dark eyes and hair that just pull me in everytime I look at the boy. He's an awesome modern/contemporary type dance who was put into ballroom this time round, and I think the couple did well. His only issue is his girl partner is taller and stouter than he and it wasn't sure who was really leading during the whole bit. I think this boi can go a long way if the votes are there. He's my favorite, so give him the love!



OMG, Neil was adorable tonight doing the salsa, even if his posture was too high for the sensuality of the step it was still very much enjoyable. I love his look and his dance and he better not go soon.






Kameron is just fricken hot. He did a great contemporary/modern routine by Mia Michaels with Benji's sister and was awesome. So very very hot. I hope he goes very far. You know who he reminds me of, not sure if you all have seen "Bulletproof Monk", the guy that plays the British thug gang leader-guy...yeah, he reminds me of him, very hot and fuckable. *sigh*



Hok has been a favorite of mine since last year. When the pivotable moment came when he couldn't move on because of his work visa it made me sad. I'm so glad to see him come back and make it finally to the top 20. I have a thing for asian bois, but for an asian boi with a british accent....*swoon* I hope he goes far...very far.




I also have a soft spot for the ballroom dancer bois who appear on here. Last year it was so hot Stanislav, but hopefully Pasha won't meet the same early fate Stan did. He has an awesome body and gorgeous face and I wouldn't mind him holding me at any point an time during a waltz.




These are my fav bois, like 'em or lump 'em but VOTE for 'em to stay!!

Why I Love "The Biggest Loser"

Here lately I've been watching a lot of the previous seasons of "The Biggest Loser" thanks to the .Style cable channel. I had watched the last two seasons and was happy to see some previous seasons.

The first and main reason I enjoy the show is because it just fills me with wonder and pride when people are doing things to better themselves for their health and their appearance. The hard work and effort the trainers put in as well as the will and determination all these folks do to lose the weight that is killing our society now.

It almost makes me cry each time they all go to the weigh in and lose the weight. Also seeing them come to the realizations that they do have control over their body and how they can lose weight...just taking those initial drastic steps to move forward is the hardest. I applaud this show because it really is an inspiration to the world of reality tv and many many americans out there who are overweight. You can improve yourself, just take the initiative! Our American society doesn't have to carry this overweight burden that we've come to adopt.

Believe me, I don't have anything against extra weight, just the notion that you're helpless against your weight (with the exception of those folks who are disabled or unable to take the proper physical route by certain medical needs).

The second reason I love "The Biggest Loser" is because of Bob Harper (the trainer for the Blue Team). Not only is he hot, but he is compassionate, empathetic and very much a source of inspiration for people who want to be fit. He may not be straight business like some trainers, but he deals with his people on an emotional and motivational level first and then deals in the physical realm. He is a physical and motivational inspiration to me and I adore him.



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In other news today, it was Melissa's last day today and I'm so sad to see her go. She was one of a couple of folks I held to the same kind of intellectual level as myself. Kaitlin being the other and she left for grad school last week as well ><.

I spent all day today reworking the men's department and believe me, after the spin class and tubing yesterday if my leg's weren't sore, they sure are now. I was moving a ton of fixtures all day. It was very satisfying. There's nothing like feeling you put in a full day of work that makes a difference...or at least makes a standing impact. As I am typing this, my legs are soooooo sore. *crossing fingers* I can move tomorrow. Night all!

He does still like me! (maybe) :P

It's tax-free weekend in Tennessee at the moment and for the past day or so it seemed like noone was phased or enthused about it. We planned scheduling around it so we had a great number of folks but we were almost dead yesterday. Today was a totally different story. We were slamming like nothing and hopefully we finally made our sales goal. Not that it's of any importance to my life considering I hate to live by the numbers. I just wanted a nice tie-in to what I really wanted to write about.

During all this deal I was helping get fitting room merchandise back presentable and returned to the sales floor and I got to work briefly with the oh-so-hot Greg. The one guy at work I would crumble for.

INTRODUCTION: Greg - Beautiful young man, probably 20ish... I haven't really asked his age yet but he's taking college classes. Shaggy black hair (with red patches, on purpose nonetheless), very well proportioned, probably around 5'6". Emo comes to mind when I think of his style...but he isn't as "extreme" as what we usually think as emo, but it gives you an indication of his look and feel.

Just a brief history. My fashion is still very similar to his although I used to have the haircut to match. I was growing it out very much like Milo Ventimiglia and was very close to matching it.

Greg and I got along well and talked rather frequently and I enjoyed being close to him.

Then a great mistake loomed over all. Russ silently wanted my hair back short and when I went in to get my sides and back cleaned up a bit I made a rash decision to cut it all off like Russ likes. Part of me wanted to see if it was the drastic change in hairstyle which may have contributed to the recent arguments and lack of "play time". It looked good but I didn't feel like ... me...like I went from me to someone without an identity.

Anyways, when I came to work after my haircut (and what felt like losing my identity) I sort of strayed from talking with Greg. All of a sudden I felt my connection to him was lost and I stupidly felt awkward around him. Like I was a different person than the one he knew. I knew it was unfounded and probably very wrong but my social anxiety kicked in. It made me think that Greg saw me as a different person now, not a person like him. And that ultimately he wouldn't talk with me. I regretted changing myself.

Then, today we were brought together to do some processing and we really began talking again...just like previous times. Granted, we always seem to talk about his academics...but he seems very comfortable talking with me about it. The look in his eyes feels like I'm the only one he really talks academics with... or so I'd like to think.

It was a good day. I learned that Greg would still talk to me and in an interested manner.

He is just too beautiful. Long hair i just want to latch onto...beautiful chest emphasized by form fitting shirts...hands tender, but very strong in their grasping...yum, so beautiful.

Granted right now I have a slight buzz (and forgive any misspellings, I'll reread soon and hopefully edit them all out) but talking with him really made my day again. Even though he is straight (at least in practice at the moment), it really made me enjoy this day so much more.

Thanks all for listening to my ramblings tonight. It's kinda random and not very well written. Most of my thoughts are based on emotion and random thoughts about the boy that drives me wild in my life outside of my relationship. Anyways, night all and here's hoping this makes sense ^^

Pizza Boy Found

After Russ came home we decided to go out to eat at one of our favorite italian places. I had veal for the first time and wasn't really impressed with the flavor so I don't think i'll be ordering it again any time soon.

On the way home Russ asked if there was anything else that I wanted to do, I couldn't think of anything but he decided he wanted to pay a visit to a friend of ours at his workplace.

While living at our old place we had a friend in need staying with us (Jack) dealing with substance abuse and such. This friend had a coworker that he hung out with quite a bit (Danny) and was awesomely super hot, not to mention a very polite and cordial guy...only flaw is that he was straight.

Well he and our bud had a falling out, Jack moved and ended up going back to rehab and we really didn't get to see much more of Danny after that.

Well, this friend still had some of Russ' movies and Russ decided to pay a visit to his place of work. We dropped by and he was still there, by luck. We had a pretty good conversation. He's still hot as hell and doing his thing. We left him Russ' number and our address. He said he'd drop by soon with the movies and such. It was REALLY good to see him though. He is a good guy and I'm sad that we lost touch

Just finished watching the first Hawaii episode of "Top Chef" and am sooo sad that BOTH Elia and Sam were cut this round. I was hoping at least one of them would make it to the finals...but I have to deal with Marcel and Ilan. Not sure if I'll have any heart in this finale but I guess i'll be rooting for Marcel. He's kinda cute in an odd sorta way, and I believe in him a whole lot more than what Ilan presents.

Either way I'm not really excited about the finale. Bring on Amazing Race: All Stars and Survivor: Fiji.